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One of the Boys

Joe Newton

I’m a high-school girl with
big problems. All my life I’ve worn boy clothes and had male friends,
mainly because I’m into things like video games and geek stuff. As high
school approached, Mother Nature flipped me off with DD breasts.

I don’t even identify as female. I’ve come
to terms with the fact that my mentality doesn’t match up with my
vagina. But now most male clothes don’t fit and my male peers don’t
take me seriously because of my body, even though I wear my hair short,
wear no makeup, and go by a male nickname. I’m not a lesbian. I like
boys. I just wish I could be one of them, too. I’m too young for
breast-reduction surgery or gender-reassignment counseling, but these
are things I’m considering.

My parents are shaken and unsure, but loving
and supportive. My best friends...

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...br /> breast-reduction surgery or gender-reassignment counseling, but these are things I’m considering. My parents are shaken and unsure, but loving and supportive. My best friends have no idea of the issues I’m facing. Any tips on dealing with this and trying to adjust accordingly? Troubled Tomboy “I’m struck by Troubled Tomboy’s kick-ass confidence,” says Seguin Spear, a case manager at Lyon-Martin Women’s Health Services (www.lyon-martin.org), a community-based nonprofit in San Francisco that provides services to women and transgender people. “While he’s clearly holding his own, I’m concerned about TT getting enough understanding and space to explore his gender identity.” Spear says there are three things that all transgender people need. “First, feeling loved, accepted, and understood,” says Spear. “Second, getting adequate support for exploration of gender experience, identity, and expression. And third, having access to good, transgender-competent medical information and care.” Needless to say, you won’t find any of that in your average high school. We live in a culture that is, says Spear, “frequently hostile toward people who don’t fit into artificial binary gender norms.” That’s putting it mildly. As I learned watching High School Musical—under duress—boys who bake strudels are regarded as gender outlaws in high schools. So brace yourself for a bumpy ride if you start opening up to your friends about this stuff, TT. But combating the isolation kids like you experience in high school was one of the reasons Al Gore teamed up with Larry Flynt to invent the Internets, a series of tubes that transports health information, YouTube videos, and pornography into our homes. “TT has access to community and support anywhere there’s net access,” says Spear, “and FTMInternational (www.ftmi.org) is a good place to start.” But be careful out there, kiddo. There are predators lurking on the Internets, just as there are predators lurking in the halls of Congress and area churches. (Parents should be required to Google “youth pastor” before giving their teenagers permission to hang out at megachurches.) Spear and I, however, trust you’ll be able to use your “geek-sharp critical-thinking skills,” as Spear puts it, to avoid the creeps. In some ways, TT, you’re one lucky boy. Your parents may be shaken and unsure, but a lot of transgenders would cut off their—oops, sorry. A lot of transgenders would give their left—shit, that’s a pretty poor choice of words, too. Hell, let’s just say that a lot of transgenders lack in the “loving and supportive parents” department. “Many transgender and genderqueer kids face familial rejection,” says Spear, “and it’s great that TT doesn’t have to deal with that.” As for surgery, Spear agrees that it’s too early. “But it’s a great time for TT to start exploring his identity with someone who isn’t personally invested in TT’s choices,” says Spear. “Therapists specializing in gender frequently offer phone sessions so trans and genderqueer people who live outside of larger cities can access gender-competent services.” Therapy can be expensive, “but even a few sessions could offer some emotional backup and tools for coping with confused or threatened family and friends. “Finally, TT, do whatever it takes to keep sane,” says Spear. “Be gentle with yourself, and know there’s lots of love for you out here.” I am a straight female and I’ve been in a relationship for two years. I am only 20 years old and I want to live my life and not be tied down all the time with some controlling guy. He won’t allow me to have friends or talk to anyone, but when I try to break up with him he cries and promises me he will change and I take him back and we go through the same thing all over again. I don’t want to hurt him. I just want out of this relationship. What should I say? How do I deal with the crying? Help! Stuck With Him Hurt the controlling, manipulative piece of shit, SWH; he deserves it. He doesn’t let you have friends? He doesn’t want you talking to anyone? Those are the early warning signs of an abuser, sister. So dump the motherfucker already. And if you can’t handle the tears, SWH, don’t subject yourself to them. Live together? Pack up your shit when he’s at work and move out. Don’t live together? Call him and tell him it’s over, you’re gone, and hang up when he starts crying. Recently, I had the chance to reconnect with a friend. After one too many drinks, she confided in me about her sexual habits, telling me she likes “soiling.” I stupidly asked what it was. The answer was probably the most disgusting thing I’ve ever heard: “You get some poo, and then you rub it on each other’s skin.” Apart from this shocking admission, she is a really nice girl. She is Christian and works in a caring profession. But I don’t want to see her again because I am grossed out by this mental image. Is it fair to end a friendship over someone’s sexual practices? Shocked Over Soiling Jesus loves the little children, all the little children of the world—including, ostensibly, poop-rubbed ones. But you’re no one’s savior, SOS, which means you’re under no obligation to be similarly promiscuous with your affections. Lots of people have creepy fetishes; the only way to avoid being friends with creepy fetishists is to refrain from having friends at all. What disqualifies this woman as a friend isn’t her fetish, per se, it’s her willingness to burden you with wholly unnecessary details about her sex life. For all you know, half your friends, both your parents, and your boss are into soiling. But the other poop fetishists in your life have the good sense and common decency not to share this information with you. Now some fetishes are charming and/or quirky, and friends may feel comfortable sharing. But soiling and/or poop fetishes are best managed on a “need to know” basis—and the only people who need to know about a soiling fetish are the people you’re soiling. Download Savage Lovecast (my weekly podcast) every Tuesday at www.thestranger.com/savage. mail@savagelove.net