As a 43-year-old single gay
guy, I recently had my first spanking experience and am feeling extreme
self-loathing. I was in a long-term vanilla relationship for most of my
adult life and never got to experience anything kinky, but I’ve had an
interest in it.
Long story short, I answered an online ad,
went to this guy’s house, and let him paddle me. I quickly blew and
quickly left. There was no sex other than me jerking myself while
getting hit. Now I feel awful. It’s not the spanking itself, but rather
the anonymous nature of what I did. This type of hookup is not my
thing, as I am used to sex in the context of a loving, committed
relationship. I feel like I’ve let myself down, like I dropped my
standards, and I fear sliding down a slippery slope into a life of
anonymous, kinky encounters. I’ve never...