I am a 28-year-old woman who
has been with my boyfriend for two years. I would call it a stable,
fulfilling, and kinky relationship. I consider myself GGG, and every
time my boyfriend has brought up a kink or variation, I’ve been willing
to try it. Some things became a permanent part in our play, others have
gone into the “tried that, didn’t like it” pile without any
problems.
Recently, though, there has been a
problem.
Eight years ago, I was raped. I have had
counseling, but I am still sometimes troubled by nightmares and
flashbacks. My boyfriend knows this. Lately, though, he has expressed a
desire to explore rape scenarios. His ideal setup would be to obtain my
consent in advance, then, sometime when the mood struck him, he would
“attack” and take me, and I couldn’t say no or use a safe word. Once
the “rape” started, he could do whatever he...